Sorry for lack of submit of my work, currently I'm too lazy but the reasons for my laziness mostly came from the family problems, I'm not quarrelling with my any blood relative like mother or father, but I'm quarrelling with my sister in law whom I've never forgive her for the faults that she had given to my family, which made me very unhappy.

And yet I'm decided to have a full time working, after spending 5 years for being freelance it gave me a lot adventures and happiness, but now I'd better seeking real work while I'm also being as freelance too.

I've made contact many companies in Bangkok but now I'm think that it would be very lucky to got a job in capital city like Bangkok, where most people came from everywhere from Thailand to working.

How ironic that the living cost in my birth place like Bangkok is quite higher but the salary is still the same or even lower.

I've found some job in Chiengmai but I'm too worry about the family, but if I have to decide when the companies that I've made interview won't call for assignment I'll have to start my life in there from zero.

That's why I've made the title "Should I happy without smile?" why? because I'm really sad.